.:. No mood for work

Smlm....pas lunch ada dpt satu email yg membuatkan mood hilang utk satu hari...ni sume nye pasal kije...bila pk2 balik..rasa mcm x berbaloi nak sakit hati..tp..lg lama pk...lg bertambah sakit hati..sakit yg amat sgt2..mcm ni...ada satu project ni..quite messy...erm...jap..jap..nak rephrase...bukan quite messy...A messy project..aa..itu yg betul nya..since before I went for maternity leave..sampai la skrg...x jln2 lagi...pas tu plak...org2 dlm project tu...sumenya dah bengang..sb ada solution architect dlm project ni yg suka dictate...dah la ala2 ahso...pastu apa org ckp..sume x betul...sume nak bangkang..bila org tanye apa yg betul...dia blh kata..."i don't know..its not my scope to tell u...u r supposed to know all these.."...ada ke patut mcm tu..? Yela..kite tau...tp dah kalau apa yg kite propose sume kena tendang and reject je..baik la mintak recommendation dia kan..? Ini x..expertise dia adalah me'reject' each proposal yg dia x berkenan....dah rasa mcm...'Eh...ini kompeni dia ke yg dia blh main suka2 x nak idea org nih..??!!"

Ok..itu summary pasal projek ni...and ada sorang dlm my team ni..dah di assigned masuk ke dalam projeck tu since the beginning...since mamat ni tau in details pasal one of the system in our dept...so..after balik dr maternity aritu..alih2 boss panggil...nak bg new project..and guess what..i was given the 'messy project' yg sume org x nak buat tu...and b4 pass the project to me...i was told that i can ask this guy to join for any discussion/workshop if i need him...the reason i was given this messy project sb the guy that joined the project earlier is currently involved in another project...ok..part tu is fine with me..

Besides that, i was also given the other project to handle and coordinate on the UAT..and am currently busy doing that..

Alih2 smlm..dpt email from the initial project team messy tu yg dia org insist nak mamat yg join awal2 kat project tu (mamat yg dlm teami ni) since mamat ni mmg expert dlm one of the system that need to be revamped..and of course..they need someone who knows in/out abt the system that is going to be revamp la kan..? Then my boss blh reply pulak..he already assigned me to take over the project..and bg tau sume org yg mamat tu sgt busy skrg ni....

I was so pissed off..yela...nampak mcm skrg dia nak cmpk sume kije tu to me..and i m scoping shit now!! Masa nak i handle the project..mulut bukan main manis lagi..cakap dun worry...the guy will still support and help u...this n that..

So..lps je dpt email tu smlm..i messenger with the guy and tanye dia..blh x dia join for the workshop session for the meesy project..?Mamat ni dgn rasa x bersalahnnya leh bg tau..i cannot la...i m very busy...and will be on leave for 2 weeks..bla..bla..bla..

Ya Allah....geramm sungguh bila dgr dia reply mcm tu..then...erus je messenger with boss...and guess what..? Boss dgn rasa x bersalah leh ckp...u try la tanye dia blh tlg x..sb dia skrg ni pun busy..? Arrrgghhhh!!! Lagila gerammmmm!! Then..terus je i replied..then..what abt me..? All of us busy..except me..right..?then thats why i have to do the scoping shit work...! amik kau!! Gerammm....lantak laa....menang2 la dia nak resign...x kisahla org mati terkulat2 sorang handle project ke...tunggang terbalik ke..apa dia kisahh..

Ya Allah...tabah kan la hatiku dlm menempuh segala dugaan kerja ini Ya Allah...berikanla aku kekuatan..dn bukakanlah pintu rezeki untuk aku mencari rezeki di tempat yang lebih baik...amin..